I grew up with a bunch of guy friends. You put up, shut up, or get the fuck out. I stayed friends with these guys all through my life. I was with them through all of their girlfriends and it was enough to make me realize that acting like a girl will get you absolutely nowhere.
Paranoia is a ridiculous emotion. It's based on assumption, you have no concrete evidence that anything is actually going on. This is when you start letting "women's intuition" or "gut feelings" run over any logic. You can't win a case on assumption, you end up looking like a fool.
Jealousy is an extreme emotion of paranoia. You're not only assuming something is wrong but now you are directing your feelings of insecurity onto another object. For example, you assume he doesn't share your feelings but now you think it's because of x, y, or z.
Confusion is not really a pure "girl" emotion. Confusion usually just acts as a catalyst upon the other emotions. It's purpose is to increase the feelings and eventual outcomes of the other emotions. Confusion is the puppet master.
Neurotic behavior is the outcome of paranoia and jealously being manipulated by confusion. It makes you call someone a million times, rummage through their things, make up unrealistic situations, stalk them, project feelings onto them that they might not have, throw things at them, scream at them in public, and in extreme instances kidnapping, robbing, and murder.
An over stimulated mind makes it possible to commit the extreme instances of neurotic behavior. When you no longer realize the difference between the good and bad emotions and your mind begins to drift into dark places. An over stimulated mind makes it hard to compartmentalize what you're feeling or to understand what you're feeling. At this point, having no recourse left, you begin to project the thoughts and feelings in your mind onto the object of you "affection." At this point you either; 1) Use extreme neurotic behavior, or 2) start your cycle over again with paranoia.
All of these stages are ground in a large number of assumptions. You know, kind of, how you're feeling but since we all lack the wonderful gift that is mind-reading, we have no idea how the other person is feeling. Most of the time we try to ask in our "special little way" but end up confusing the hell out of the other person or ticking them off by constantly asking "what are you thinking." This leads to us not asking at all. Then our fabulous emotional cycle starts.
It's hard to get off the marry-go-round once it's started. I sometimes look my situations as legal trials but, it's a little bit harder to in this case. I'm ignoring somethings, blowing some things up more, and I'm not really able to rationalize my feelings. Something is missing. Something is not right, it's abnormal. Working, learning, and hanging out with friends, they just don't do it. It's like I've opened something that I can't close and I don't even know if I want to close it. Did I just open Pandora's box?
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