Karma is paying me back

Literally when it rains it pours. There is nothing drives me nuts more than watching dreams go up in smoke right before my eyes. It's like waving good bye to someone you love, it hurts so badly. Now I have no idea what to do, what my next move is going to be. I feel lost but oddly I've felt worse because I'm finding hope in all the situations I'm facing.

I don't know why I'm holding on to it or if I'm just a complete sucker. I just know that if I lose it all of this becomes so much more horrible. Hopefully when this is all done somethings will work in my favor, if it doesn't well, I guess I get to deal with all of this again. Here's to walking on eggshells.