Having a big mouth is not always a good thing

There are times in my life that I do actually sit down, look pretty and shut my mouth. I think maybe I need to start doing this more often.

I don't really have the type of personality that goes well with being demure or being shy. It's never really been my thing. If I have something to say I'm going to say it. I was graced with enough wits and enough brains to know when to be tactful or mute.

That being said, I've come close to losing my job because of this on many different occasions. I tend to be pretty insubordinate and have a problem being a bit too cocky when it comes to people in positions of authority. I really don't like it when people tell me what to do especially when I know what I'm doing. I really hate being blamed for other people's mistakes. I own up to my mistakes, I embrace them, take responsibility for them, and correct them. I don't fucking care how much of a team we are in, if you make a mistake and I get blamed for it, I will be one pissed off bitch. I pull my own weight and I get my shit done, I have no desire to deal with incompetent people or take the blame for their stupidity. You know what that makes me want to do? Nothing, that's right, no work, no help, nothing. Then you can blame me and you will have a legitimate reason to yell at me. Because I live my life to legitimize yours.

I fucking hate this. What the hell else could go wrong? I mean seriously if you're going to make it pour and not give me an umbrella or a raincoat then what the fuck is next? Lightening, tornado, hail??? I've got a bad professional life, a shitty social life, I'm an idiot when it come to my class, a non-existent sex life, and a pseudo relationship. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm perpetually angry and never satisfied. Lucky me, because everyone loves an angry, self-serving, bitchy, workaholic girl. What the fuck am I doing?