Sleep

I'm not sure why but for about two weeks now I have been unable to sleep. I had a very long day yesterday, came home about 10:15 and passed out on my couch. I woke up at 11:30, exhausted, took my contacts out and laid in bed for 2 1/2 hours, wide awake.

I know there is a lot on my mind. There are a shit ton of issues that I'm worried about, a lot of things going on in my life, but seriously just let me sleep. I cannot shut the dull roar of stress, jealously, desire, and the unknown out of my head. I lay down and pictures fly through my head like a power point presentation on crack. They don't even have a decent stream of consciousness. I'll see my baby and then a bank statement. My father and then a dentist appointment. I mean seriously! The bags under my eyes are so dark I look like I've been in a three day boxing match.

I'm tired and lazy when I get home so the homework that I've had a week to do, has not been done. The pictures for my slideshow have been moved from my home to my office but I don't have the money to actually send them. Bad things are not coming in threes for me they're coming in twelves. Can I just get one area of my life to work? Monetarily, personally, professionally, habitually, they're all pretty fucked up right now. Up/down, black/white, ketchup/mustard, it's all not making sense. Nothing is matching up.

The scales of justice are not balancing. What in the hell did I do so they're tipped so unfairly against me? I know karma's a bitch and uses her prowess to play dirty tricks, but seriously give me something. Give me a break, let something go my way.